My eye patch
Thursday, January 12, 2012
Monday, January 09, 2012
Dealing with Grief and Eye Surgery
You know the old maxim, after a major loss don't make any big life decisions for awhile. Well... I didn't. I decided I needed to use the money I had received from my mom as part of her estate recently to spend it on eye surgery. It's a little much to handle. I mean, having eye surgery would be difficult to manage if everything was going well.
I can't see really well. I'm in between my two eye surgeries. My depth perception is off. Stairs especially are difficult. I probably shouldn't be driving. One is has great far vision but no up close. The other eye has no vision at all, and when I use readers to read up close, everything is very large. This is disorienting to me.
As a teacher, I'm getting a little stressed because I can't see anything up close, and one eye working. This is an exercise in patience and due diligence. My favorite mantra is getting used daily: One Thing at a Time.
I know I will have the other eye operated on in two days. It's coming. Met with the doctor this morning about what kind of a correction we wanted to do on this second eye. I told him how I was not able to see up close and this was hard as a teacher (not to mention trying to play guitar or read music or read for that matter). His words were ominous: Sometimes we have to make choices. We have to decide. I can't have both near and far vision. I picked the option of seeing better up close. So that's what we're going to do. Minus 1 diopter. I can use readers to see ultra fine print and/or bifocals, which I'll also need for night driving.
I understand this. I have to decide. God willing, I've made the right decision.
I can't see really well. I'm in between my two eye surgeries. My depth perception is off. Stairs especially are difficult. I probably shouldn't be driving. One is has great far vision but no up close. The other eye has no vision at all, and when I use readers to read up close, everything is very large. This is disorienting to me.
As a teacher, I'm getting a little stressed because I can't see anything up close, and one eye working. This is an exercise in patience and due diligence. My favorite mantra is getting used daily: One Thing at a Time.
I know I will have the other eye operated on in two days. It's coming. Met with the doctor this morning about what kind of a correction we wanted to do on this second eye. I told him how I was not able to see up close and this was hard as a teacher (not to mention trying to play guitar or read music or read for that matter). His words were ominous: Sometimes we have to make choices. We have to decide. I can't have both near and far vision. I picked the option of seeing better up close. So that's what we're going to do. Minus 1 diopter. I can use readers to see ultra fine print and/or bifocals, which I'll also need for night driving.
I understand this. I have to decide. God willing, I've made the right decision.
Pre op Visit
Am having my pre op visit with my eye surgeon. I'm grateful for my restored vision in my right eye. However I cannot see up close. Everything is blurry within three feet. I'm going to see if he can correct my near vision on my left eye. That would be the best of both worlds.
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